I realized a parenting flaw recently.
I have an urgency inside of me, for my kids to have a lasting, thriving, and flourishing relationship with the Lord. I want them to understand Who He is, that He not only created the world and have given each of our kids to our family, but that He provides, oversees, cares, and cherishes us in a way we can barely grasp. I want them to understand how much it grieves the heart of God when they disobey-even more so that the heart of their mother.
I want them to see how He provides over and abundantly-immeasureably more than we can ask or imagine-for all our needs. That HE knows the desires of our hearts. He is FOR us. I want them to know He is cheering for them, wildly. Loudly. And running across the field at just the glimpse of them, or shout of laughter.
As the years go by and I begin to understand more about Who God is, I realize I know even less than I thought I did. But I DO know that there is tremendous value in understanding WHO you are in the Lord and how much He deeply roots for us. More than anything I want them to securely rest in Him, so their value, security, and worth comes from Him, more than anything or anyone else.
Perhaps at (ages) 3 and 5 I should not have this urgency to pour into them all that took 34 years (and still learning) to get. Maybe the desire for them to learn from the Bible and His truth, instead of through experience, like so many of us do, is unfounded.
I just want them to know that He is enough. It has taken me a long time to get that and there are still plenty of days where I don’t. Reflecting as I write though-it should be MY life that should urgently be seeking to know He is all those things. “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”
I want my treasure to be found in Him, so that my heart, my family can be found in Him too. THAT is urgent!